Saturday, June 09, 2007

Psalm 139

As some of you know I have been dealing with a lot of depression lately. And wondering what it is all about... why I keep going into this place... and why I haven't been able to stay out of it.

Many sent me emails of encouragement and many left me comments on 4 shared.... but Someone sent me an email that really helped me to look at it a different way... a way I had known before but had forgotten because I had taken my eyes off of the Lord and became hard of hearing because I was blocking off everything and focusing on "me" and what "I" was feeling.
She said...

"God has many purposes for us all..even those of us who suffer in mental pain an anguish...some times..I think we must bear the Lord's pain..for him..as..there is to much suffering in his world...and that it is a priveledge..he gives us ..because he knows..our faith is undying in him...."
So many times I have been reminded that we share in the sufferings of Christ... and we share in the sufferings of those He created, those He loves. How can we ever feel compassion for someone else if we never experience the pain they feel? How can we ever REALLY reach out in love to help someone if we have never needed someone to reach out in love towards us? Our pain, our sorrow, our suffering is NOTHING compared to what He endured BUT it IS REAL, and even as we are going through it we CAN reach out to others suffering... and we can go to our knees and lift THEM to the Father's throne... AS we pray for them He brings our healing also.
We need to remember, and be reminded sometimes... this really is NOT about us! we may be experiencing the pain at the moment but there is a world FULL of people going through their own pain... may we look beyond OUR pain and bring some comfort to others... May we comfort them with the comfort we have been comforted with.

And just awhile ago The Holy Spirit impressed upon me to re-read the following scripture.... may it bring comfort to someone reading it... as it did to me! When the darkness seems to cover every aspect of our life may we REMEMBER that The Lord is right there with us! He said He would NEVER, NO NEVER leave us or forsake us! May we remember that he descended into the dark places of this earth but He came OUT!!!! May we remember that we are MORE than conquerers through Him who loves us... and may we remember... that GREATER is HE who IS IN us than he that is in the world.
As you read the following passage... think about what The Holy Spirit is saying TO YOU...

Psalm 139

1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.

2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.

3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.

4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.

5 You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.

6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,

10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"

12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.

14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!

18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.

...

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.

24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.